I have a lot of time on my hands. A lot. When there are no kids involved keeping a house clean isn’t difficult. I recently read a blog about being an “internet busybody”. It hit home a bit. For one thing, I don’t have enough stuff to fill all my time. I could probably clean a little bit more. You know, that stuff Amos brings to our living room or into our guest bedroom. I’m up to date on any tv show I think might interest me, and even that’s gotten a bit boring. I’m looking for a job that I wouldn’t hate and would allow me to still be home with Wes when he’s home from work, cook, and keep things clean. I am an internet busybody right now. Facebook. Twitter. Blogs. Even those Christian blogs I read. I really love technology, but need to realize it has its place in my life. Some of that time spent on the internet could be better spent. I can spend more time in the Scriptures.
More time praying.
Praying is not one of my strong points. It’s probably the spiritual discipline I need the most work. I was walking into my apartment this evening, Starbucks drink and Amos in hand, thinking about how I miss my friends, want a job, want to be a better wife in the areas I’m lacking and God reminded me I haven’t really taken any of that to him. I’ll think about them and think about how I want to do better or what I can do about those things while I’m sitting Bible open in my lap, or maybe even journal about it, but it never gets taken to the Lord. I need God. A lifetime in the church and almost two years into this journey of a relationship with the Lord and after that beginning period of being struck with the realization of how I can’t do it on my own, I’ve forgotten again that I need to take things to the Lord in prayer. He’s the promise keeper. He’s the Provider. He’s the Comforter. How silly I am for forgetting how important prayer is, prayer for myself, for others, to praise Him, to just talk to Him, or to just listen.
So, I guess that’s my goal. To spend more time in prayer. Have you spent time talking to our Father today?